Yesterday while I was at work I had a mother and her daughter come in. The daughter was looking for a leather jacket and was so excited for it and her mother was really happy to buy it for her. As I was helping them decide on what size to buy and conversating with the mother the daughter came over and said, can I have this as a hanukah and christmas present?, it’s all I want. Her mom said, this is a staple piece and I want to buy it for you don’t worry about what it’s for. I noticed her daughter was very nervous biting her nails. As I began ringing her mom up for the jacket I learned why her daughter was so nervous. Her mom recently went through a horrible divorce with her husband of 28 years. He cheated on her and left her with nothing. She told me that he has a lot of money but doesn’t care about her and wants see her rot. Her daughter worries about her and doesn’t want her spending a lot of money thus feels guilty when she does. As she was telling me this tears came to my eyes. I quickly thought about my own family and how it’s the complete opposite. My little sisters are spoiled and my mother tries to buy there love by buying them things and when I used to have contact with them and saw this it killed me, because my sisters would turn around and treat my mother horribly. I know my mother was dying inside. Anyway, I asked my manager if a coupon we had could be applied to the leather jacket and after verfying that it could be, I told the mother that because she was such a valued customer she was recieving 50% off the jacket. The daughter looked so relieved and the mother did too! She went over and gave her daughter such a big kiss and bought more stuff!
I guess for me it also hit home because I know what betrayal feels like. I know how it feels to trust someone and have that thrown in your face. It hurts more than anything. I feel that if I could do something in the moment to take away that pain and I am allowed to than why not, because GOD knows that sometimes I wish that someone would or could do it for me even if it would last for a second when I am feeling it.
This letter was faxed to the Chief of the Office of Civil Rights – Special Litigation after I continiously tried to speak with the DOJ civil rights customer service and the supervisor over a period of months. This psychiatrist is still practicing medicine and is putting the lives of patients in jepodary. There were medical documents, court hearing transcripts and more sent by Senator Greg Ball and myself in December of 2013 and January of 2014. Apparently, the lives of people with mental illness are not as important as the Ferguson Case and other high profile cases. When a patient of doctor Baran’s ( God Forbid ) dies or becomes seriously ill due to her negligence and serious medical misconduct this is when you will see the Dept of Justice act. It’s not enough that I was tortured, falsely imprisioned, had my HIPPA Protections violated and she perjured her self along with more violations of the law for the DOJ to ACT.
DOJ complaint letter-2 < Click here to read the letter to the Chief of Special Litigation – Office of Civil Rights
Letter to Senator Ball From Psychologist < Click here to read the letter my psychologist wrote to Senator Greg Ball
Shortly, after I was discharged from New York Presbyterian Hospital in February of 2013 I began seeing Dr. Mark Philip. ( Phd) After having gone through such a horrific experience in NYPH I was reluctant to trust another doctor, but I was hopeless, more depressed and fearful that if I didn’t get any help I would become just another suicide statistic because of the trauma that had been done to me inside the walls of that hospital.
I can’t say enough good things about the professionalism of Dr. Philip, how the use of talk therapy and learning breathing techniques to control my anxiety amongst other useful things I have learned throughout our sessions together have gotten me through one of the, if not the toughest times in my life.
Dr. Baran of New York Presbyterian Hospital – Westchester Division made me out to be a monster and changed my diagnosis in order to get a court order. It’s not much different from what Representative Tim Murphy is presenting to the public by stating people with serious mental illness need forced treatment and assisted out patient treatment, without it they are a danger to themselves or others. Then Representative Tim Murphy goes on to grossly misrepresent people with serious mental illness in cases like The Newtown Shooting, Elliot Rodgers or The Navy Yard. In a op-ed where Leah Harris the Director of the National Coalition for Mental Health Recovery was speaking about peer to peer supports and people with mental illness recieving help in community housing, Representative Tim Murphy felt intimidated and backfired at her in another op-ed in the same paper stating that people with mental illness belong in state hospitals and inpatient psychiatric wards. Representative Murphy goes on to state that it is inhumane to deny people with serious mental illness treatment. No it’s inhumane to recieve treatment that is not neccessary and have it forced upon you and then have to fight a mental health system that is setup to have it’s clients giveup on complaing about the very providers that provide this inhumane treatment. My case is not isolated and happens a lot, the issues is that I have withstanded the pressures of the system at all costs and not many are able to do so. **** Name of my psychologist has been changed and was made up to protect his identity ****
Letter to Senator Ball From Psychologist – Link to letter -
Dear Dr. Fuller Torrey,
As a client of the mental health system, a person who suffers from major depression, I want to share my experiences with you and how absurd I feel you sound in your article The Ridiculous ” National Wellness Week” . I have thankfully lived through a few suicide attempts. I have been able to recieve help in forms of medication and psycho-therapy. I use activities like exercise, relaxation techniques, taking long walks with my dog, listening to music, watching my favorite movie, treating myself to something special and a lot more to keep physical, emotional, financially, socially and spiritually well. The very brochores you speak about that SAMSHA has made are the ones that are passed around in DBT, ( dialectical behavioral therapy) CBT ( Cognitive behavioral therapy) and are promoted in groups like WRAP Wellness Recovery Action Plan .
It seems to me that since you are the one who wrote Representative Tim Murphys ( Helping Families in Crisis Mental Health Act ) bill #HR3717 and in it want to cut SAMSHA, any opportunity to criticize their efforts to improve mental health care or help people with mental illness you do. The treatment that you propose which is forcing the mentally ill to take psychotropic medications, long term state hospital care and Assisted Out Patient Treatment which is issued only by a judge has proven not to be effective. The studies put out that show it is effective are by agencies that have a clear interest in this type of programing. To name a few that I pulled up in a search crime solutions.gov , treatment advocacy center and NYS Office of Mental Health . Law enforcement will always have an interest in any treatment where they do not need to deal with the mentally ill , The treatment advocacy center is ran by yourself and the NYS Office of Mental Health is one of the most corrupt agencies I have ever encountered.
SAMSHA’s efforts to promote mental wellness and teach people with mental illness how to care for themselves other than taking psychiatric drugs is commendable. Even a person who is schizophrenic needs to learn how to love themselves and would benefit from their pamphelets and ways to keep themselves well.
It is truly sad to see that you are a psychiatrist and appear to be completely against any type of treatment that promotes self- awareness , therapy that doesn’t include drugs , long term state care or forced treatment. There are many people who suffer from serious mental illness that lead very successful lives and are not forced into treatment. You fail to note any of this along with your colleague Representative Tim Murphy. Of course this would defeat your point in your bill that people with serious mental illness are violent and need to be controlled.
There is no argument that we need mental health reform. In the begining we know it will not be perfect and we will need to work on it for years to come. The question is as clients of the mental health system do we want to start out with mental health reform that is so restrictive it violates our civil rights and further sets us back to where we don’t want to be or do we want to begin with a bill that can be molded into what a comprehensive productive mental health system looks like.
Everyone has heard about Representative Tim Murphys mental health bill the Helping families in crisis mental health act. Have you heard about Representative Ron Barbers bill the Strengthening Mental Health in Our Communities Act of 2014. If you look at the two titles of each bill right away you see that Represenative Tim Murphy is interested in helping the families of people with mental illness, not people with mental illness in particular. Representative Ron Barber wants to help our communities and strengthen mental health as a whole within them. That’s a big difference. Each bill covers suicide prevention, medicaid and medicare coverage, mental health and veterans, criminal justice and mental health, early intervention and more… The difference between the two is that Representative Ron Barber wants input from the clients of the mental health system, transparency, checks and balances and protections. Representative Tim Murphy writes one-hundred and thirty-five pages so the professionals have all the control, the clients have no say, there is no over sight, checks or balances and the very little that is are done by the people within the same agencies.
This has become a republican vs democrat topic and it should not be. Congress should be aware of Representative Ron Barbers bill just like they are aware of Representive Tim Murphys. Just because Representative Tim Murphy had Dr. Torry Fuller write his bill for him and it’s 135 pages in length doesn’t mean it’s any better than Representative Ron Barbers, in fact Dr. Fuller is in favor of Assisted Out Patient Treatment, Forced drugging, long hospitalization stays and the very civil rights violations that I am afforded by our constitution.
Please take a moment and read the brief overview of Representative Ron Barbers Mental Health Bill #HR4574 and call your congress person today and encourage them to co-sponsor it. This is the right track for mental health!
Summary of HR4574 – Strengthening Mental Health in Our Communities Act of 2014
I posted a while back about the deceitfulness of Congressman Tim Murphy to the public and how on his facebook page I had made a public comment(s) and it was visible to me but not to the public. Today on Fox News it was reported that Facebook is doing an experiment with disappearing posts that is only available in certain areas. Read More here…
Recently, I posted a comment on his page about how our Veterans coming home would be worse off if his bill was passed in the house. A portion of his bill would implement a special court stigmatizing their behavior by associating it with a ” Veterans Treatment Court Program ” The Veterans treatment court program would be a collaboration of the criminal justice, mental health, veterans and substance abuse agencies. It would include ” intensive judicial supervision and case management, which could include random and frequent drug testing when appropriate. This is where it gets very hairy and dicey it would also include a full continum of treatment services, including mental health services, medical services and services to address trauma. That portion ” a full continium of treatment services” sounds like to me this court which is being proposed is like Assistant Out Patient Treatment. The link will send you to an article which will explain to you the development of the AOT program.
Our Troops go to war and no doubt see traumatic and experience traumatic situations. When they come back from war they should not have to worry about being faced with a ” Veterans Court Program ” which will turn them into a criminal and force them into treatment. My point on Representative Murphys page was that our troops are already not seeking help because of the fear of loosing their 2nd amendment rights and stigma of mental health. His bill only enforces the two. His bill will increase suicides amongst the veterans and mental health diagnoses.
As I stated in a previous post why are we allowing a public elected official to try and trample on our civil rights. We live in a country known for Freedom and Rights. What Representative Murphy is being allowed to do in the public eye and be deceitful at that is shameful and disgusting for every organization and person that supports it.
This is a picture of my friends facebook page showing Rep Murphys facebook and my post removed from public view
This is my friends FB page showing Rep Murphys fb and my removed from the public view
My Comment showing on my fb page
We need to start doing something about our own mental health and take responsibility. Goverment should not be dictating to us what will happen in our care. They wouldn’t and aren’t going to do it for people who suffer from any other disease and they shouldn’t and can’t do it because we suffer from a mental illness. Call your congress person and Representatives today tell them to VOTE NO to HR3717 The Helping Families in Mental Health Crisis Act
I have been trying to figure out a way to raise #mentalhealth awareness. After rattling my brain for a while I came up with a great idea and put it to the test.
Today I went into the New Cannan Ct Starbucks and #paiditforward without saying anything but buying a 10.00 gift card and telling the cashier I was paying it forward to the next customer. The customer was so happy and I was too!
Some may be wondering how this will raise Mental Health Awareness well obviously thousands of others need to do it also and like the ALS challenge people need to be nominated.
The only thing is you will need to take a picture of your receipt that you actually paid it forward or have someone record you. Unfortunately, I never got my receipt.
In the next 24hrs I nominate Jen Jennifer Kalaj , Gabriella Rodriguez , Leah Harris , Jessica Kong , Jason Eberhard , Adam Slosberg to pay it forward . There is no set dollar amount.
Anyone can begin this on their own by going into a coffee shop and paying it forward then going onto facebook and nominating people but they must post with proof that they paid it forward. If you feel comfortable mention that your doing it for Mental Health Awareness but please make sure that when your posting on social media that you include the hashtag mental health in your post so people know why your paying it forward.